i know i know.. the blog's almost dead again.. but it seems like there's nothing much to post about now.. life's mostly a routine, except for meeting up with a couple of good ol' friends sometimes to chill and just hang out..

anyway, chinese new year certainly doesn't evoke the feelings in me anymore.. is it because i'm getting older? or am i mentally ageing? but! alas! i'm very looking forward to 4th feb! is anyone is free in the afternoon? please come and help me to chop the veggies and the meat and the whatevers.. haha. there're still quite a lot of people who haven't replied if they're coming.. :(

recently i've been wondering.. is it really bad if 2 people have nothing much to talk about on the phone? after the usual questions of how's ur day/how's work/how's class/have u eaten there's this pause afterwards which i can't explain. is the relationship in decline? if my guy is not my soulmate, then is he the one for me? or am i getting bored of this relationship? and i'm not really happy about the way things are going to turn out for the next few weeks or so. i'll just leave it at that.

i think i need someone who can give me surprises; routine after a long while gets really BORING.. and i get bored quite easily. i need someone that i can talk whatever shit to.. the good and bad shits.. or maybe i just don't have much shit happening in my life.. he's always at work, always tired.. i understand that, but that just means he doesn't have much life left for me.. it's not like it's going to be temporary. it's his job and it's gonna be the same thing for like dunno how many years? and i'm going to continue meeting him once a week for the next dunno how many years? all of a sudden i just feel very negative.. or i'm being too demanding..

sigh. better to not think about it. i'll just concentrate on getting ang baos. need money to buy food! :(

Omg. I just accidentally went back a page and now i've lost my entire entry!!!!! ARGGGGGHHHH!!!

Sucks.

Anyway! i remembered i first mentioned about today/yesterday's meeting with angie! Thanks hons! i had such a great time! and i'm still so damn glad i didn't buy that Warehouse top! haha.. and Thanks again for helping me pick the top i eventually loved so much! Whee! oh ya, we really should go back to eat the indian food again.. haha.

She told me about the 2 flashers and 1 pervert in her estate! hons, i hope you had a safe journey home! oh ya, i forgot to tell her that actually my neighbourhood once had a case that went on the newspapers.. it was many many years back, i think i was in primary school or something.. there was a rape case in one of the 5-room flat blocks.. it sounded really horrid when my mom told that to me.. *shudder*

So angie was supposed to leave before 10, but we ended up leaving at 10.. (oops) and i thought i could have a good night's sleep when i reach home.. but when i was packing for tomorrow's/today's lesson i realised i haven't done my microecons assignment that's due tomorrow/today.. Argh.

Anyway! it was a good thing i stayed up cos there was a surprise mail! MR WEE SENT A CHRISTMAS CARD! i wonder if the other A51 people have received it? If the date is correct, he's actually now in chiangmai.. date states 28th nov-28th dec, exactly one month.. which means! mr wee won't be able to attend the to-be-confirmed christmas party! :( but nevertheless, i'm sure he'll tremendously enjoy his time there.. sigh. after reading his card/letter, i'm starting to miss him... and miss A51 and SAJC days.. :(

okie, i have to go sleep or else i can't wake up in time for lecture tomorrow/today!

YAAAAAAAAAYS.

Guess wad! i had THE Cambridge Road chwee kueh this monrning for breakfast! haha.. i'm so contented.. :) i think i'm having it again tomorrow, cos my mom bought extra.. haha.

Sigh. i can't believe Christmas is coming! i was just around town yesterday and i happened to see so many wonderful things that i so wanna buy! but they cost quite a bomb :( SIGH. peipei advised me to shop on eBay where some of the stuff's cheaper! btw, for those who dunno, peipei was my ij tp classmate and my clubbing khaki! haha.. i still remember it was she and kim whom i gave my first time.. eh, i'm talking about clubbing la. tsk tsk tsk. hahaha...

Talking about Christmas, i'm thinking of organising a Christmas party for my jc mates! i doubt it'll be an official A51 thingy, but more of whoever can make it.. i'll see how.. might have to decorate the entire house too man! it's been a long time since my house was decorated for a Christmas party. i think i've only told Yansy about this.. msned her and was telling her that there might be a dresscode. haha.. eh, i'm seriously thinking about that you know? :P

Not only am i thinking about having a Christmas party, i've been pondering about repainting my room. it looks like it needs a brighter colour! and probably rearrange the furniture.. cos i don't think my parents are so nice to buy me some new ones. Saaaad. Maybe if i could just d.i.y. something from my old furniture.. if i start the floor plan and designs now i'm sure i can get it done before Christmas. haha. i think i'll start right now...

Omg. This is disastrous!

I'M CRAVING FOR THE CHWEE KUEH FROM CAMBRIDGE ROAD! WITH CHILLI AND LOTS OF CHAI PO PLEASE!

But luckily or unfortunately, there's no one to buy for me, nor is the stall open (i think).. SIGH.. i so love the chwee kueh from there! the chai po's so fragrant and i believe the chilli has hay bee.. delicious to the core..

Phew. Just finished revamping my blog. I thought the template looks nice, but i realised i made a huge mistake.. see the right-hand corner of the frame? It shouts "SUICIDE" with a toxic icon.. darn. Dear readers, please ignore that while i try to find a way to get rid of that word... Thank you very much for your cooperation. :)

If i have the time, i'll find another skin that is suicide-free and profanities-free and negative-thoughts-free.. haha.

Anyway, guess what? i jus got my new internet connection today! which means to say, i no longer need to hijack my neighbours' bandwidth.. haha. My mom has been nagging at me about hijacking other people's connection. She says it's a sin. Well, i feel that in a way, yes. Depends how you look at it. I saw it as you-dun-put-a-password-i'll-just-help-myself thing.. But i definitely feel much better having my own secure connection. No more d/cs anyway... haha.

After my serving of surfing, i'll be preparing tiramisu! Anyone who has a good tried and tested recipe please let me know k? haha. i'm officially a baking/dessert-making enthusiast. Er, actually i was since quite long ago.. lol. maybe i should convert this blog to a recipes site.. haha. I'm looking forward to trying out new recipes too! Recently got some sounds-good-looks-good dessert recipes online.. haha. Perhaps in the future i'll open a Auntie Anne II.. and definitely not selling pretzels.

Talking about desserts, i really need to have my dinner now man...

i overslept this morning, so i'm going for evening mass at 6.. i'm still tired actually, but since i'm still full from lunch, i thought it'd be good to update my blog (i know.. what took me so long, right?)


Anyway, been sleeping late these few days.. stayed up fri night till about 3am to bake Daf's birthday cheesecake (caramel toffee cheesecake.. want the recipe?), which i'd promised I would do. it was worthwhile, i guess, cos most of them liked it, and i have "orders" for birthdays.. haha. i'll see how by then.. oh! and i've learnt how to make muah chee! haha.. daf's mom taught us.. and there's khalsa, or kalsa, or is it calsa?! whatever, but it was GOOD.. gonna add that to my list of recipes.. besides my "famous" pork rolls.. haha.


btw, i have an interview tomorrow, at amk.. hoping to get that job or any job, for that matter. i'm dying for something that generates income!


oh ya, i haven't forgotten that i'm accompanying angie to Holy Spirit church this coming wed! gonna be a new thing for me too cos i haven't been to other churches' RCIA or RCIY.. not that i've been attending Risen Christ's RCIY.. but i'm looking forward to it cos uncle david's told me a little about the RCIA/Y there..


oh my! zhen qing is on.. haha.. i have no idea why i still enjoy watching its re-runs.. more like re-re-runs.. haha..

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I HATE ANNE'S BF. HE MAKES DAMN NICE SUSHI FOR ANNE. HE DESERVES TO . OKAY NEVERMIND.
anyway! i am weishan!! and next to me are fran and anneanne!!!!!! we love tay eng soon library!!!! :))))

sharn: anne's ibook is very noisy:/ agree fran??
fran: yah yah.

fran: and her ibook refuses to load my blog. this is so unfair!!!!

sharn: fran types very slowly.

fran: i know that.

sharn; anyway we miss anne very much and this is the only way to get her to update her blog:)
yay.

anne: thanks to sharn and fran :) now my blog is updated!!!
sharn: uhm wow.
fran: quit staring at me typing slowly. anyway, i will come here to study more often!!! there is cheapfood here!!!

sharn: OKAY BYE BYE BYE!!!! ANNE IS EATING IN TAY ENG SOOON LIBBBB.
THATS A SIN.
fran: TSSSSSSK TSSSSSSK TSSSSSSK.


okay byes for real!

Whee!


I've got myself an iBook AND an iPod mini!! (Mom paid of cos.. haha)
But ya! It's more than i ever imagined..


But there's not much wireless network around my place, so I'm still using the home com to come online.. All other stuff are still done on the lappy.. (wonder if I should name it??!! HAHA!) I was talking to Greg about naming both the lappy and the mini, and i was saying if I do, the names should be a pair, like Jack&Jill or Haagen&Daz.. haha.. something corny. But it's just an idea.. haha.


Anyway, I'm still a little blur about some stuff, so Ra's meeting me in sch next week to help me configure.. yays.. and have lunch at the same time :)


So.. Meanwhile I better start reading through Soci notes.. it's been a while since i read Soci! arg.

Ahahahaaa...


I know i haven't been blogging, but i hardly come online anyway.. (unless i get my own laptop) Haha.


So.. Updates.
Hmm.
I've been busy, just finished my mock exam last week, and my UOL and local revision classes are commencing next Monday. AND, until now, I still can't believe I'm going for night classes. What a bother. Oh well, I'm not gonna break my consistency, so I'm declaring these 2 months to be officially Anne's Revision Months. HA-HA.


At least there's something to take my mind off school this Friday: IT Fair at Suntec Convention Centre. Gonna go down to take a look at the laptops.. Mac of cos.. It's a good chance to get an iBook.. but a slim chance to get sponsored for one.. :(


Besides, I have yet to start saving for the Creative Zen Micro.. hmph. Even so, by the time I've saved up for one, it's probably out of stock. Haha.


Oops, time for dinner!
FYI: I'll try to update the blog in future.. HAHA..

My eyes are puffy.


Sometimes i just wished that painful memories could be forgotten instantly, like you'd go to bed and wake up not remembering anything that happened the day before.. (something like the Adam Sandlers and Drew Barrymore movie.. i know..) yea, i wish i could.


Suddenly i'm left wondering whether it is wrong of women to need affection. Even though hugs and kisses are not the only expressions of love, what's so bad about showering them on your loved ones? At least i don't think that's bad..


-sigh- never have i once thought that talking to a person could be so difficult.. or rather, voicing my own thoughts could be so difficult.. Escapism is not a solution, but what can i do when i can think of no other? -double sigh- things can get real tough when two persons are on totally different frequencies..


shit. Talking about frequencies, i still have tons of stats homework to clear.(what with the observed frequency and expected frequency) arg. what a time to be reminded of homework.. and of exams. Mock is in Feb/Mar, revision spans Mar-May, and THE real thing starts before mid-May. Talk about stress man..


To think i was looking forward to hols. Seems like it'll take forever to occur..

My latest acquaintances:

• Karl Marx
• Max Weber

Not that they're exactly new to me, but i don't really know them very well. -shrug-

While they're supposed to be my very good friends, or that is what i'm trying to make of them, it is exhausting and brain-draining to write a 4-5 pages of assignment on how they contributed to the rise of modern capitalism.

The wonders of Sociology...

-pinch nose-

My blog smells mouldy! haha.. seriously, i have absolutely no idea why i have this habit of neglecting my blog. That's because... i hardly go online at all!! -hmph-

At long last, i have the com all to myself: my bro has found work, at Island Country Club or something like that.. $6.50 per hr.. that lucky boy. well, u can guess, it's his 1st day of work today! He was telling me yesterday, he'll manage to earn about 1.4K if he worked an entire month: thinking so far when he hasn't even started work yet...

-sigh- I would like a job too! Just that i'm not so free yet. I've actually been thinking of giving tuition, but i'm not confident of teaching anything else 'cept Maths.. -bigger sigh-

Oh well, it's best to concentrate on school and CYF for now, and plus an ahem.. haha. -sigh- Speaking of CYF, my term ends tonight, along with 11 others. Come to think of it, the year has passed rather quickly, after so many sessions, after all our meetings, suddenly i can't bear to step down. But of course i will have to.. I guess it's a new responsibility from tomorrow onwards! Actually i don't feel that i've done much, especially when i was busy with work at the beginning of the year, and even after.. perhaps much of the enthusiasm has left me? The lack of energy and all.. All that's been done cannot be undone, and what's unsaid's been left unsaid.. ahhhhhh.. Whatever. Now, it's looking forward, not looking back.

There's still so much to do in December: school+assisgnments+test (yearning for that 1 wk break), caroling+pract, friends' birthdays, Christmas+celebration+presents.. and then there's orientation tomorrow. Woah, Jam-packed month is an understatement! I hope i still have some space to breathe..

Whoo! Just got my com back! i mean, my com crashed a few days ago! Luckily, my uncle came to help, and most of the stuff has been recovered, and almost everything's back to normal.. phew. Ain't i glad we didnt have send the cpu all the way to HP HQ to reformat.. that would have been the case if my uncle didnt offer to help man..

Anyway! The trip to Malaysia was fun! The food was great and i gained a good 1kg!! ahhhhhh!!! -screams at the new addition to the family of spare tyres- trying to lose the weight now.. but seems like once my appetite increases, it's so tough to get back into shape -like there was one in the beginning-.. -cries-

-sigh- sch's getting boring.. that's like a disaster, cos i'm aiming to do well for 1st year exams.. but that's in may 2005.. not too near, not too far.. but considered far more fortunate than nus-ers and ntu-ers i guess.. hahaha.. oops. lessons are getting quite out-of-hand as well.. with morning-class people going for afternoon classes (which they're not supposed to) and Meena lagging so much in math (cos we're starting stats soon --> math classes will end).. and me screwing up my accounts assignment.. -SIGH- things are sure not looking gd, but i guess i'll get by.. >_-

3 more days to Malaysia.. hm.. i don't sound exactly very excited huh.. maybe that's cos i've been waiting so long that the excitement's going down? it's more of feeling nervous now.. imagine facing so many people you've never met before at one go...

uh oh.. maybe i haven't told that many people.. i'm going to malaysia with my other-half, back to his hometown for his cousin's wedding dinner.. so i'll be gone from 7th - 11th Oct (thurs night to mon morning)

no worries about it.. got my parents' permission, and i know how to take care of myself. yup. will be back in time to rest and then go for accounts lecture..

i'm supposed to start packing today.. but i dunno why.. maybe cos i'm not feeling so well.. or maybe it's the few tiffs we went thru this few weeks.. i mean, i'm not the kind who gives up easily, so a few quarrels here and there doesn't get me down.. but i don't want to go to malaysia without making sure that we're alright, that I can forget and put all those quarrels behind me and not think so much about them for a few days.. i dunno..

just yesterday i was replying his letter.. wrote all my feelings down.. but now i'm not so sure whether i should continue writing or tear it up. i'm afraid that he might feel that i'm the one who keeps complaining about his faults yet i'm the one who's hurting him.. i just don't know where to start now and what to write..

forget it.. i should just try to forget it now and start packing.

i'm back! been at home all day.. with nothing much to do.. actually i do have my soci test to study for, but it's so dry i can't stand taking another look at the notes.. urghh. -yawn- feeling kinda lethargic and exhausted these few days.. even though this week's a break from sch. oh yea, í'm so bored i just repainted my nails!! hahaha.. i am sooo BORED! -stares at fingernails- hm, they're a nice pale pink.. hehe.

-sigh- i was supposed to send email out just now, but the stupid server was down.. now how am i going to explain myself.. hmph.

-yawn- maybe i should just go wash my brain with a little of kid's central for awhile.. hee..

gosh. refurnishing and "reopening" of blog!
isn't that refreshing.. :)

however, i've not much to blog.. life's pretty much a routine, now that uni has started. (it's been a month already! how fast time passes!) school's like the past, i mean, it's A level style. Tons of readings to be zapped (Sharn! i wish u were here to persuade the photocopying auntie to zap entire books for us!!) haha, anyway there isn't a photocopying auntie, so there. i'm sure i'm a certified photocopying lady in the making, along with chelle..

i was on the bus with grace on sat, (cos we've got math in thee morning) and suddenly we were missing the times we spent in SA, i ,mean, with our super fun and enthu and loud classmates! maybe we should have a class reunion again soon.. hm. but with the girls busy with school and the guys "slogging their guts out" in ns, i wonder who'll have the time?

well, even if school work doesn't get us down, i've still got church.. and someone whom i need to see every night before i go to bed.. haha. maybe i'll talk about him some other time; just what is good to know is, we're happy.. that's really good enough for the moment in time, i guess. :)

will try to update "new" blog regularly (somehow), but gtg for now..

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ok, i didn't stick to my plan..

now the teaching job's off, and i'm back to sakae bugis.. it's kinda sad actually, i do miss the kids.. should've taken their pics before i left.. now they're only just a memory..

so far, i've started at bugis for only 2 days.. actually i shouldn't be going back there, but maybe i just didn't want to change environment.. it felt quite good to see familiar faces anyway.. also, work shouldn't be much tougher since i'm already used to it.. haha.

btw, checked out ACCA courses last week.. ok, they're internationally recognised, but they may have a slightly higher tuition fee on the whole and it's more difficult than accountancy at ntu.. most of the students there take the ACCA course as an additional skill, for example, ntu students taking ACCA course part-time.. furthermore, even if i do get the degree, i'm not sure if i'll get a job easily with it.. seems like ntu degrees get u into a job faster, in singapore that is! gonna check out other alternatives soon, like university of london..

argh, what's gonna happen if i don't get into ntu? i mean, they're (local unis) not the only universities around, but it'll definitely make things easier if i did get in. argh argh argh. this is frustrating.

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oh, did i tell anyone i cried quite badly during Passion Of The Christ? hee...

oh well, work's been ok! am glad sakae work is over and that i'm quite enjoying myself at PCF Nee Soon Central's PAP Kindergarten.. currently helping some teachers with the nursery and K1 classes.. i'm not ready to take over the classes though, so i'm mostly observing lessons and all. so far i've learnt that kids can be real cute and mischevious.. and there are some who really do not deserve your sympathy. haha. there seriously exists spoilt brats who disgust me.. ugh. oh well, i'm wondering how long i'll be there.. i'm giving myself a few more weeks just to make sure i don't make a wrong decision. come to think of it, it's thanks to God that i managed to get this teaching job.. He's answered my prayers alright.. hee.

oh ya. i've also applied to work as a part-timer at Sakae.. again. this time it's bugis.. didn't really think of getting a second job after the kindergarten job, but recently i thought something bad was gonna happen so i had to save for a rainy day.. part-time over at sakae has not been confirmed, so meanwhile i'll jus continue teaching while waiting for bugis' news..

gonna return to choir as well.. seems like life's gonna be really busy huh. waiting for ira to go back for choir pract together.. and i gotta get ready for june's session as well.. hm, i should be able to juggle everything, i hope.

ooh, gotta check out ACCA about their courses as well.. i should be studying part-time while working.. cos i guess my chances at ntu's gonna be very slim.. might as well decide whether i'll be taking the accountancy course or the teaching course... yup, results are not good so i have to find alternatives, don't i?

okiez, gotta go soon. manager from bishan's leaving for the funan branch tomorrow, so tonight's the farewell party..

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ok. i've officially resigned from sakae sushi.. tendered on 2nd april, day after april fool's. i actually intended to resign on april fool's day, but i thought my manager wouldn't believe me.. ha. well, as i've told quite a lot of people, my last day of work will be on 16th april, this coming fri.. yays.

besides my resignation, there's a big thing that has happened.. i haven't told many people, and i don't really intend to announce it to everyone.. just feel like keeping it down and all, and wait till it has settled.. shhh for those who know..

now i have to start thinking about other stuff, such as my next job.. hm. i wonder what kind of experience a kindergarten teacher would get.. i dunno if there's still a place for me, but what i know is, my dad's friend who is the principal had offered me a chance to teach the kids at his kindergarten school.. (now i really see the wonders God can do) which is somewhere in yishun. i'm excited at the prospect of teaching the kids, especially my fav subs like math, art, or even english or chinese! it sounds like fun, but i'm sure teaching is not just about providing knowledge but also about passion and patience. for all i know, the kids could be so playful and rowdy they'd be giving me headaches everytime i see them.. haha. if there is really still a place for me at the kindergarten after my last day at sakae, i'm sure teaching will help me partly in choosing my career path: accountant or teacher. if i cant handle kinds nor teach with passion, i seriously won't consider teaching to be a career option. it's much too risky for kids to get a boring and she-doesn't-know-how-to-teach teacher. i vaguely remember a teacher from ij who told us that it's not the teachers who are important, it's yourself. it's only partly true, cos i feel that, without a teacher with love for teaching and love for the students, including having good communication skills and knowing how to teach (that's very important), most students wouldn't understand the subject.. at least for me, that is. (i better not mention names)

enough of my "teaching" thoughts.. btw, it's Easter Sunday already! Happy Easter everyone! we should rejoice for our Lord has risen! i feel that this yr, even though i've been buried in work, i've at least found time to prepare myself for Easter.. through Lent, even though it was kinda last minute this yr, i managed to do my reflections and confession. i'm the lazy kind who goes for confession when the time calls for it.. i admit that. but this yr, it feels kinda special. after confession (or rather, penance) i felt more relieved and sorta felt like i was a new me. even though the confession lasted shorter than the previous yr, i'm glad i put my heart into it, especially the prayer after. i've come to know it's the amount of effort we put into trying not to sin that counts.. to feel guilty about our sins are not enough, cos we can't keep giving ourselves the excuse that "the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak" so that we can continue to sin. we have to remember our faults and make sure we try our best not to sin.. that is how i feel i can prepare myself.. if i truly love the people around me, i wouldn't keep hurting them, in either words, thoughts or deeds.. sounds familiar eh..

hm, that reminds me of "Passion of the Christ".. will blog abt it next time round.. gotta catch sleep or else i won't be able to catch the 11am mass tom with archie.. haha. oops. i mean the archbishop.. zzzz...